End of the tunnel.

People who have no money think money is everything

People who have money think happiness is everything

We smoke and we numb our pain away

In that moment we play pretend and think that happiness is here to stay

If only we acted like what we feel on the inside

If only we acted like what we’ve been through

There would be so much chaos in the world

How much more are there of us?

The lost,

The confused,

The rebels,

The pain hoarder’s

The broken

The unopened book

“Life is full of phases”,they say

But I ask how much of the bad phases does it take to completely destroy a perfect human being?

Life keeps us jumping from one pain to the other

Sometimes when we get hurt we hope it doesn’t hurt more than some others

Sometimes we need to escape

Sometimes it’s uneasy

I really don’t want to believe that there is someone somewhere trying to push me to my limits

Since the world can’t hurt me

They want me to hurt myself

I guess I now believe in all that voodoo bullshit

Sometimes I lash out and sabotage

Hoping that someone see’s

To see me goes more than just meagre looking with the eyes

To see me is to see me

In my world nothing is ever surprising

In my world I accepted that demons don’t want to go away

They feel so comfortable because I no longer fight them

Sometimes we all get tired of fighting

All I need to do is just read the writing

The writing on this wall does not seem so clear anymore

I am standing firm

Holding myself so I don’t fall

A pillar to myself

I would have said what a weak pillar I am

But I’m not weak

I could be anything else but weak is not it

I have carried a self that wanted to break itself

I have mended a soul that decided it was going to play dead

I have embodied a spirit that chose not to die

So I live

Maybe some parts of me are gone

Or maybe they hide

Because they don’t feel safe in a world where sometimes we feel as though we are magnets to pain

And we cannot escape it

Until we lose our physical self

And if we cannot lose our physical self

We lose our minds

And when we lose our minds,

we lose it all.