Author: Queenremss

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Dancing with pain

Tonight I’m dancing with pain

I have invited her again

I did not mean to

I tried to stay away but she found me yet again

Why have you showed up

I have been happy

You knew my weakness

And you ambushed me

I guess I really am reckless

There really is no gain for the selfless

Anytime love shows up you show up

Why do you make me afraid of love

Why is love hurtful towards me

What have I done to love

Why does love ambush me alongside you

Tonight I’m dancing with pain

In my own world

Sunglasses covering up my dead eyes

And moving to the beat of love

Love controls this movement

It was the best dance of my life

Tonight I’m dancing with love

Love is pain

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Am I really privileged?

I’m doubting myself again

Questioning everything I do

I’m losing myself again

Now it seems nothing flows perfectly asides the tears from my eyes

Stuck in my imaginations picturing an Angel in disguise

Too young to realize?

That’s not me

I grew up way too fast

I will not be categorized into a sub category of privilege

Because my idea of privilege is different from your idea of privilege

Privilege to me is when you were a child you would wake up in the morning and you go down for breakfast then your mum and dad are seated at the table

Then you go ahead to discuss with them

So easy

Yes that’s privilege

Do you know what else privilege to me is?

To feel so normal

That nothing interrupts your day to day life

Privilege is when you don’t even have to strive to survive

Privilege is to feel alive

Because some of us are dead

some of us of lost

Some of us are a living coma

Some of us just exist

Some of us live in our heads

And you that live and have control over your minds are the real privileged

“I choose what I put my mind to”

“I will not be focusing on that today”

That is privilege

The ability to choose

The ability to control

To navigate

To understand

Some of understand

But some of us can’t fix it

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Lonely night

It gets so lonely sometimes

I’ve been lonely for too long

Even while I was in relationships

It’s like no one really got me

No one really knew me

No one knew how to love me

Now I’m all alone

It gets so quiet at night

And I take up one side of the bed

I’ve become so addicted to it

Maybe it’s because that’s where I charge my phone and use it nonstop to distract me from the pain I feel

To make it less quiet

Less alone

I have my phone

Feeling sadness from loneliness does not equate lack of self worth

I think it’s time I get honest with myself

Being alone isn’t self love

It’s sometimes self isolation

I guess I’m afraid that someone would use my vulnerability against me

I’m too sensitive

I can’t afford to have more pain

But sometimes I wish I had my woman

I wish she adored me just as much as I adore her

She doesn’t exist yet

Although, a girl can only wish

Wish to be less lonely tonight

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End of the tunnel.

People who have no money think money is everything

People who have money think happiness is everything

We smoke and we numb our pain away

In that moment we play pretend and think that happiness is here to stay

If only we acted like what we feel on the inside

If only we acted like what we’ve been through

There would be so much chaos in the world

How much more are there of us?

The lost,

The confused,

The rebels,

The pain hoarder’s

The broken

The unopened book

“Life is full of phases”,they say

But I ask how much of the bad phases does it take to completely destroy a perfect human being?

Life keeps us jumping from one pain to the other

Sometimes when we get hurt we hope it doesn’t hurt more than some others

Sometimes we need to escape

Sometimes it’s uneasy

I really don’t want to believe that there is someone somewhere trying to push me to my limits

Since the world can’t hurt me

They want me to hurt myself

I guess I now believe in all that voodoo bullshit

Sometimes I lash out and sabotage

Hoping that someone see’s

To see me goes more than just meagre looking with the eyes

To see me is to see me

In my world nothing is ever surprising

In my world I accepted that demons don’t want to go away

They feel so comfortable because I no longer fight them

Sometimes we all get tired of fighting

All I need to do is just read the writing

The writing on this wall does not seem so clear anymore

I am standing firm

Holding myself so I don’t fall

A pillar to myself

I would have said what a weak pillar I am

But I’m not weak

I could be anything else but weak is not it

I have carried a self that wanted to break itself

I have mended a soul that decided it was going to play dead

I have embodied a spirit that chose not to die

So I live

Maybe some parts of me are gone

Or maybe they hide

Because they don’t feel safe in a world where sometimes we feel as though we are magnets to pain

And we cannot escape it

Until we lose our physical self

And if we cannot lose our physical self

We lose our minds

And when we lose our minds,

we lose it all.

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Nothing.

I gave love

And got nothing

I fell hard and fell into nothing

Now my heart longs for something

I don’t know what is

I don’t know what it could be

But I hope I get something

I trusted in the words that love fed me

And love left me with nothing

I held on to your hands

And now I hold nothing

I looked into your eyes and saw something to feed my soul

But now my soul is left hungry

Feeding unto nothing

I used to dream of something

But now I dream of nothing

I held you in my arms

I felt like I had everything

But now I hold on to nothing

I used to feel something

But now I feel nothing

I am not nothing

But when I’m without you I feel close to nothing

I will hold you in my thoughts and imaginations

I will hold on until they fade into nothing

Until the taste of your lips on mine feels like nothing

Until the scent of your body smells like nothing

Until the texture of your skin feels like nothing

Until the smile on your face remind me of nothing

I will forget

I will remember nothing.

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Pain city

I hate this city

I am leaving this city

I am leaving everyone in this city

This is not my city.

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Always remember you

I remember you

I remember what it was like the first time

I was scared

I didn’t know how to act around this girl that gave me shivers

The good kind actually

A big personality

A contagious smile

At that moment I knew

I knew for her I’d run a thousand miles

The memories are here to stay

Just as you are in my life till this day

I’d never give this away

I’ve seen you grow

Different hairstyles

Different fashion styles

And a different way of life

The free kind

The one that makes me want to stay

You can say she’s a rebel

The good kind

The only savior in my type of human kind

No one needs to remind me that I love you

I have always loved you

I can’t stop loving you

I breath easier when I’m with you

Reality isn’t enough when I’m with you

I travel miles in my mind, soul and body when I touch you

When I feel your face in my palm

My heart begins to melt like I have never experienced a woman

Touching on your hair even if there isn’t much there

I feel as though I am close enough

Close enough to feel vibrations

Close enough for me is your heartbeat

The one that you think that I don’t hear

Why wouldn’t I always want to be near?

Close enough to try and stare into your amazing eyes

The one that makes me realize that I should stay

Realize how beautiful life could be

That I shouldn’t throw all this away

Your beautiful eyes

The one that I’m afraid to stare at for too long

I guess you never knew why

It’s just that my heart can’t take the fast beat

My body can’t take the shivers

And my tummy can’t take the butterflies

The love I have for you is infinity

I hope one day you’d take this ride with me

My love

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Lost

Post author By Queenremss
Post date April 21, 2022
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I’ve lost myself for too long

Seems as though I’ve carried along different personalities

The one that fits the different lives I’ve been living

Somehow I feel I’ve lost count of all facades and sharades

The mask

The beard

Covering up my true self to benefit others

I call myself good

I let myself go so I could a smile on their faces

While I don’t remember what it’s like to really smile with so much joy

The one I miss

The one that brightens up a place

The one that holds so much grace

I know somewhere deep down the real is still fighting for a spot

In the front lines

Shouting, screaming

Give me a shot!

I am you

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UNDER THIS WOMAN.

“I am in control”, so I said to myself when she looked me straight in the eyes and told me how much she wanted me.

“I am in control”, I said.

Holding my body together,

Being strict on my mind and ignoring the goosebumps that can’t hide

She knows,

My anxiety tells me she knows how much I want her

How much I was to rip her clothes apart

She knows,

How much I want to see what her nipples really look like beneath that sundress,

How beautiful those nipples stand,

How I’m able to get out of this,I don’t seem to understand.

She touches me,

I can’t possibly tell her to stop

I want her even way more than she wants me

I thought to myself,

“Right now I’m right where she wants me to be”

She took off my shirt and kissed me from the neck down

She teased me and I shook at every single touch

How tender yet so aggressive

For her, in this moment I’ll be so decisive

She took me and made me her sex toy

She satisfied herself with my body

I had never felt more proud of myself than in that moment

Her sweat dripped down her back as she made sweet love to me

I grabbed her ass as she began going hard on me

Her ass smacking my thighs as her pussy hits mine

I lose touch with reality as I’m under her spell

“If this is hell ,I’ll gladly be your prisoner”, I whispered in her ear

She moaned out my name as she was choking me

She is my fantasy

She locked her eyes onto mine

I watched her facial expressions get so intense

As she rode on me

Her breasts bouncing

Her ass smacking

Wetness splattering

Vagina uncontrollably juicing

She captured my soul beyond explanation

She calls out my name one more time

This time she can barely be coherent

She is cumming all over me

I can feel her

Her cum dripping down my pussy

Her heart beating fast as she proceeds to lay on top of my body

How sweet

Nowhere I’d rather be

Than underneath this woman.

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UNFORGETTABLE

The rush

Just like ecstasy flowing through my body

She can’t be compared to nobody

The butterflies that she causes in my tummy are currently in chaos

They can’t think straight anymore

They lose their minds at the sweet sensation running through my heart

She gives us the true meaning of excitement

My vagina answers to the sound of her voice

And the feeling of her touch

Is it safe to just say she owns me?

My soul knows that she does

That is why whenever I’m without her

I close my eyes

And that is where my moment with her lies

Remembering all the moments we shared sitting across from each other on a beautiful night

Her eyes glowing

Such an incredible sight

Speaking love languages without words

Feeling of being in our on world

She lives in my heart

I have already made her a permanent home

No matter where she goes or I go

She will always stay within

I love her

With my body, soul and spirit

I do

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