Maybe I’m not what you want
Maybe I’m just what distracts you until you get it
But I hope you still want me
When I’ve moved on
I hope you remember how I made you feel
I hope you remember the sound of my moan when you touched me
The taste of my lips
Because I still taste yours on mine in my dreams
The sound the bed made when you were on top of me
The face you made me make
While you made me cum
Because I remember yours
The dimples I see when you smile
I can’t live without you
And it haunts me
It hurts me
That I don’t know how I fell in love with you
I just remember holding your hand
Realizing how much it was going to hurt to let it go
I knew someday I’d have to
I just didn’t know it would be too soon
No matter how much you make me feel sometimes
I still want you
I want to hold your face
And kiss you anywhere I want
Even in elevators
Or on the damn street of Lagos
Where no one can stand to see us
I never understood why I wasn’t enough for you
It crushes my heart feeling like you meant the world to me
But you only made me a little space in your heart
And that was where I took shelter and it comforted me
I’d cry for a few months
Until it no longer hurts
Just memories
They weren’t that many memories
But the few where the best in the world
It’s so messed up
The fact that I will always love you
Even if that love hurts me deep
I can’t write anymore than this
It hurts
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