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BEFORE I SLEPT…

Before I slept

I closed my eyes and touched my body

I imagined it was your hands

I opened my eyes and pictured you walking towards me and grabbing both of my legs and going down on me

I imagined you doing things that only our eyes I could see

I reminded myself of how soothing your voice is to me

As I thrust deeper and deeper I called out your name

I thought of you being naked on top of me

How wet your pussy could be

While smashing into mine and causing an overflow of cum

I gasped for breath

And thought of you holding my neck and choking me

Telling me that I was all you needed me to be

Deeper deeper deeper

It was better imagining you fucking me

It was intense

I’d do anything to get you to touch me for real

I crave every bit of you

I closed my eyes again

I took out the ice

And held you in my arms from the back sitting on the bed naked

I held you so tight and put it all over your beautiful neck

Then down to your nipples

Then down to your navel

All the way down to your pussy

You shivered

And then I touched it how it needed to be touched

While kissing on your neck and chocking you the exact way you needed to be

Before I slept

I imagined you all over me

It wasn’t a sad night

Not a single tear dropped except tears of joy

the imagination of you was my sex toy

Didn’t need no vibrator

I want more

I’m not done yet

Come on top of me

Hit it right where our pussy meets

Let our cum stain this sheets

Fuck me harder and harder

Give me the main course ,fuck the starter

I want you today , tomorrow , next year, and the fucking year after.

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BLIND (part 1).

Maybe I’m not what you want

Maybe I’m just what distracts you until you get it

But I hope you still want me

When I’ve moved on

I hope you remember how I made you feel

I hope you remember the sound of my moan when you touched me

The taste of my lips

Because I still taste yours on mine in my dreams

The sound the bed made when you were on top of me

The face you made me make

While you made me cum

Because I remember yours

The dimples I see when you smile

I can’t live without you

And it haunts me

It hurts me

That I don’t know how I fell in love with you

I just remember holding your hand

Realizing how much it was going to hurt to let it go

I knew someday I’d have to

I just didn’t know it would be too soon

No matter how much you make me feel sometimes

I still want you

I want to hold your face

And kiss you anywhere I want

Even in elevators

Or on the damn street of Lagos

Where no one can stand to see us

I never understood why I wasn’t enough for you

It crushes my heart feeling like you meant the world to me

But you only made me a little space in your heart

And that was where I took shelter and it comforted me

I’d cry for a few months

Until it no longer hurts

Just memories

They weren’t that many memories

But the few where the best in the world

It’s so messed up

The fact that I will always love you

Even if that love hurts me deep

I can’t write anymore than this

It hurts

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One more

Eyes like paradise

Smile worth more than diamonds

Strikes my heart In seconds

She was different

She was beautiful

She was simply all I’ve never had

The best I ever had

She was an angel

Kiss me just one more time

Before the world fucks it all up

And confusion and fear holds me hostage

Look into my eyes and tell me the best of things

Just one more time before it all ends

One more time

Before I remember all is temporary

And all I cannot have

One more smile

One more look in your eyes

While I feed my soul with happiness

One more touch

Just maybe

You might feel the same way

And think of me when you get wet

Just the same way I think of you

And crave every bit of you

It’s not lust

It’s something deeper than I can explain

I’ve never felt this

Never known this

But I all I feel is butterflies

All I feel is addiction

Your body , a drug

That leaves me in nostalgia

Just one more you.

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Lost myself.

I have lost so many pieces of my heart to silence ,

I have kept mute when they tested my patience ,

I lost myself to those precious little moments ,

That I would’ve called you mine when they thought we were just friends,

I should’ve said something ,

I lost myself when I settled with their perception of us,

I lost myself when I couldn’t tell them who we are ,

And all we have ,

Those precious moments when I could have owned up to you being mine ,

And I , yours.

Those moments when they called us sisters,

I should’ve said something,

But I didn’t.

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To the one I lost.

First let me start by saying sorry

Sorry for the times you had to feel like you’re alone

Times I wasn’t there

I’m sorry that I’m not so visible

And present

I’m sorry that I slept off way to early and couldn’t even tell you goodnight

And good morning just right when you woke up

I’m sorry I didn’t give you the kind of love you deserve

You deserve the world and more

I don’t want you to really tell me how much I hurt you

Sometimes I know you fake being okay with all that I did

I didn’t want you to feel like you have a damaged girlfriend

The one hurt from past relationships

And takes it out on you

I didn’t want to punish you for what someone else did to me

I don’t want you to feel for a day that I didn’t love you

I’m scared of love

Yes it’s the only fear I have

If I were to be asked what my biggest fear was it would be love

I don’t want to keep running

Or hiding

And I’m sorry if I was not the most perfect girl in the world

I’m complicated

Clumsy

Absent minded

And most of all depressed

But I promise I’d find a way to make things right one day.

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PEOPLE LIKE ME

It’s been a while I went to church

It’s been a while I spoke to God

I don’t chose to be far away

But I have no choice but to be

Seems like it’s the only way

Sometimes I want to have conversation with God

I want to know if it’s true

All I’ve been hearing about him turning His back against girls and boys like me

They say God doesn’t love us

That we are abominations

That we don’t deserve your love and kindness

That you’d never listen to us

Is it true ?

I’ve always wanted to know

I want to stop feeling guilty anytime I call on you to provide me a loving girlfriend who will open doors to unbelievable dreams I thought never existed

Or calling on you to take away my depression

Is it wrong ?

I stayed away from church for so long

They make me feel like an outcast

They call me a sinner and a product of satan indirectly

I hate the pretense

It’s disgusting that I have to sit there and act like I’m okay with it

With people spiting me

I’m not welcomed there

They judge people like me

It’s all in our favor that the pandemic caused a suspension on churches

And I would not accept the fact that they say your love does not get to people like me

The amazing people you created

They say we are mentally deranged

Millions of us ?

you created us so didn’t you give us the ability to feel ?

Why are we so many

Are millions of us walking around mentally deranged ?

Mentally deranged for loving who we love ?

For living our truth and being happy ?

Tell me

I need answers

Who made this rule

Who wrote the Bible

Why did they do this to us

What if ?

Just what if ?

Religion is the only problem standing in our way

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Can’t sleep.

I can’t sleep

You hurt me deep

Now I can’t sleep

All I remember is our skin to skin

The warmth of your body on mine

who am I to deny

That you are in my every thought

Who could have ever thought

That as toxic as you are for me

I still can’t sleep

Thinking of you

And the lies that I miss

I can’t sleep

Hope you’re sleepless because of me too

That’s all I need to know

You are my beloved sorrow

But I’ll take what I get

Even if it’s half of you

I’ll take this love untrue

Goodnight my boo.

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