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Always remember you

I remember you

I remember what it was like the first time

I was scared

I didn’t know how to act around this girl that gave me shivers

The good kind actually

A big personality

A contagious smile

At that moment I knew

I knew for her I’d run a thousand miles

The memories are here to stay

Just as you are in my life till this day

I’d never give this away

I’ve seen you grow

Different hairstyles

Different fashion styles

And a different way of life

The free kind

The one that makes me want to stay

You can say she’s a rebel

The good kind

The only savior in my type of human kind

No one needs to remind me that I love you

I have always loved you

I can’t stop loving you

I breath easier when I’m with you

Reality isn’t enough when I’m with you

I travel miles in my mind, soul and body when I touch you

When I feel your face in my palm

My heart begins to melt like I have never experienced a woman

Touching on your hair even if there isn’t much there

I feel as though I am close enough

Close enough to feel vibrations

Close enough for me is your heartbeat

The one that you think that I don’t hear

Why wouldn’t I always want to be near?

Close enough to try and stare into your amazing eyes

The one that makes me realize that I should stay

Realize how beautiful life could be

That I shouldn’t throw all this away

Your beautiful eyes

The one that I’m afraid to stare at for too long

I guess you never knew why

It’s just that my heart can’t take the fast beat

My body can’t take the shivers

And my tummy can’t take the butterflies

The love I have for you is infinity

I hope one day you’d take this ride with me

My love

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Anxiety

Anxiety is waking up at 2:21am

Worried for no reason

Heart beating fast

As though something bad is about to occur

Anxiety,

Just like a disease that has no cure

It would creep in on you for sure

Anxiety,

It’s like waking up and all of a sudden

And the monster goes,”here is a ton of burden,

I would like you to hold them till they weigh you down,

break you,

And have you stuck in this little town,

Where all there is, is fear”

There is no freedom of the mind here

Just memories of a future you don’t know about

Just pictorial images of disaster

Just pain that you can sight from afar

Anxiety,

It’s chaotic

Crying silently as I lose my mind in public

People laughing around me

Now I think I’m the freak

Yes, laugh at me.

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LOVE, SPACE AND FANTASIES.

I closed my eyes today,

Removed myself from this planet

And took you along with me

I guess you know where,

Space

Where our memories are only ours and hard to erase

Where nothing else matters than this place

Where it’s just us

Where I could look into your eyes

And tell you the millions of feelings inside of me

Where somehow we have superpowers and we could see each other’s hearts

Where I could kiss you

And we have nowhere else to go

Because it’s just us

And right there in that moment we could kiss and make love for as long as possible

Because with you is where I feel most comfortable

You’re with me

I’m touching your beautiful hair

So soft

But your skin is softer

Your face is amazing to touch

Your lips

Damn your lips

I stare at them when you’re not looking

The way your upper lip forms the letter “M”

When you smile it’s like the world changes

With you there’s no one or nothing I fear

It’s peaceful here

Wow

You’re the most beautiful woman I’ve ever known

I want to hold you every single day

Life without you Is no life at all

Every day for you I’d fall

Don’t be scared by love for you

You are all that matters to me

No one else makes me feel the way you do

I’d run to the end of the world and back for you

You,

You are everything

You’re all of me

You are a part of my body ,spirt and soul

With you I feel whole

I breath for you

I smile for you

I laugh for you

Because for you is all that makes me happy

Touch me

I mean my face

Make me feel all of the things you feel

Take me into you

As I have, you

Look into my eyes and tell me the things you find hard to say

Take me into the future

Preferably a sunny day in May

A walk on the beach

Blunts in Cali

Eye fucking each other while having lunch with Kota the friend

Your eyes telling me that this would never end

Don’t tell me to stop licking my lips

It’s the way you make me feel

You’re like a full course meal

With extras on the side

Lots and lots of extras

Look into my eyes one more time baby

Just the way you do

How you close your eyes just a little bit and open it,

when you tell me how much you love me

How you take me on journeys with your eyes

To places only our hearts could see

You are my greatest fantasy

There’s no place I’d rather be

Than in your arms

It’s the safest place for me

I love you but please don’t think you’d ever know how much I love you

It’s unexplainable

It’s deeper than you’ve ever imagined

So I touch your beautiful face

And I look into your eyes

And I tell you with all my being

With all of my heart

That from the very start

I have loved you,

I love you,

I’ll keep on loving you even more each passing day

Till all of eternity

I promise

I always will.

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Forgiveness?

Have I really forgiven everyone in the past ?

Or I just put them in a storage box located somewhere deep in my mind?

Where I thought they’d be hard to find,

even if I fucking tried ?

What if I’m triggered one day ?

And all the anger I thought left me came back to take a tour

As we drive down this memory lane

Making an account of all my pain

It’s the past yes

I thought I had buried it

I guess

I realized that today,

When someone called the name of my abuser

It triggered me

Oh damn you anxiety

I was shivering

My heart

Pounding and pounding

Beating and beating

Full of clogs and heavy weight of pain that felt like a 1000kg dumbbell

My head and body feeling heat like I had just fallen into hell

I guess today my little mind storage box decided not to be my shell

I felt it

Just like years ago

Pain, rage and anger

But still walked fine like nothing has happened

And right where I stood

I realized that the universe,

my healing process,

meditations and affirmations have brought me here

To come face to face with it

I guess it’s true what I always say

I told my friend earlier today

That we have to feel our pain in order to tackle it

So here I am ready to speed

As we go down memory lane,

Remind me to put forgiveness in the passengers seat.

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Dear notes,

I come to you when I get sad

When I get mad

When I have no one to talk to

When I get tired of being the bone for others to stand tall

But mine breaks and no one even cares when I fall

My notes

What you know nobody knows

Sometimes I don’t know how much burden I would’ve carried if you weren’t in my life

I don’t know how I would’ve dealt with my pain in times of strife

You’ve been with me through it all I’d call you my wife

You know my secrets

You know just right where it hurts

You never judge me

Sometimes I wonder what other people would think if they ever go through all I write here

But honestly as long as I have you that’s the least that I fear

I love all that we share

You never left me so I know that you care

When I talk to myself you remind me that you’d be here

Always watching me as I drop a tear

Dear notes,

If I never make it out alive

Please self destruct and come along with me

I am not leaving the world with these words only our eyes could see.

Love,

Remi🤍

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POINTLESS NOTHINGNESS CALLED LIFE.

Nothing makes sense anymore

I’m no longer waiting to see what the future has in store

I wish there was light at the end of my tunnel

The deeper I go the darker it gets

As I take each step with regrets

That I chose to be here

To have hope in a future I knew wasn’t coming

Now I’m here running

Just fast enough to get to the end of this misery

Just fast enough to leave all the pain behind

I guess happiness is hard to find

So let me have peace of mind instead

Even if I know I’d find the ultimate peace when I’m dead

My world is a mess

I’m only here playing a damsel in distress

Too late to regress

Just here to impress

That I can be your title of a strong woman and let it all go

And act a “pick me”, so society can drive me into dirt

Call me societies wheel barrow

I play the main character so I don’t have to remember all this is real

I am here once again pretending to be okay and dressed to kill

I thought I was dead for too long but now I’m back as usual

You might think that my write ups are unusual

Sit back , think , relate

You are in this hell we call life

We are just too blind to see the fire surrounding us

Burning us beyond recognition

Trust me this isn’t a competition

At this point in my life there is nothing I fear

Not a thousands deaths

Nor a million misogynistic men

Not a thousand army at lekki toll gate

Not a fucking homophobic moron

Not anyone

Not you

Not me

I fear nothing

Not even this pointless thing called life

Absolutely nothing!

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My breath.

My mind told me to go

But my heart told me no

I’m never letting go

The road to our freedom might be slow

I need you to know

That now I’m running to the end of the world and back

Trying not to lose track

Of every memory

And how you and all that you are

Is Just the perfect savory

I worship this love we both have

In all of your glory

You are the exact definition of royalty

I will fight to hear your heartbeat

When you win or when you lose I’ll take a seat

Right next to you

So I need you to know

I’m never letting go

You are all I need in this rugged world of pain

A life without you in it would’ve drove me insane

Hold my hands let’s walk in this lane

Where you and I are all that matters

Ignoring all the sadness that lingers

Take me to space

Let me live in your galaxy

You are mine

And I, yours.

I will love you forever

You are my breath.

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REBEL

It was the way she danced away the night

Her star shining even in plain sight

The way she spoke

The way she was unapologetic

Her aura was magnetic

I saw myself in her

A rebel we don’t play by the rules

taking physical action,

not just holding and believing in unpopular views

She’s special

I can feel it

See it

I’m lost in the imagination of all that she is

She reminds me of myself

Fighting these demons

But maintaining sanity by any means necessary

Turning weed to our every day accessory

Temporary wipe out of our bad memory

Just maybe from there we just might change this story

We carry our power and darkness with all of our glory

Like shield and armors

You dare not harm us

She’s a rebel

I love that about a woman

A “fuck the world type of woman”

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FACADE.

She’s a tortured soul with the face of an angel

Heart turned to stone bought from the pit of hell

A facade

She wears it so well

Wears the happiness to hide her fears

But never really knew what true happiness was

A rebel she never cares what she does

Living for the revenge

Just like Medusa

Revenge against those that turned her to a monster

A deceiver

Acting out the role they played

Hurting others

Bleeding on those who didn’t cut her

Making them suffer

She did not plan to turn out this way

But she changed the moment she realized they’d never stay

She has come to realize that love never stays

For the rest of her days

She’d never be the same as she was once before

She’s a living reflection of her past

An encore

Of pain and lack of love

She’s what they made of her

A demon in disguise.

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My shadow

Depression is my shadow

It follows me everywhere

Sometimes I think its gone and just right when it’s dark and a little light shines upon my life

It shows itself

Turns it all dark again

Comes to remind me of my pain

Reminds me of a dark little space

That It has hidden me in

And even when I try to be found

It reminds me that no one cares to look for me

Reminds me of the pain waiting for me behind my blinding fantasy

I’m not too blind to see

That It’s just me and depression

I and my shadow.

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