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Am I really privileged?

I’m doubting myself again

Questioning everything I do

I’m losing myself again

Now it seems nothing flows perfectly asides the tears from my eyes

Stuck in my imaginations picturing an Angel in disguise

Too young to realize?

That’s not me

I grew up way too fast

I will not be categorized into a sub category of privilege

Because my idea of privilege is different from your idea of privilege

Privilege to me is when you were a child you would wake up in the morning and you go down for breakfast then your mum and dad are seated at the table

Then you go ahead to discuss with them

So easy

Yes that’s privilege

Do you know what else privilege to me is?

To feel so normal

That nothing interrupts your day to day life

Privilege is when you don’t even have to strive to survive

Privilege is to feel alive

Because some of us are dead

some of us of lost

Some of us are a living coma

Some of us just exist

Some of us live in our heads

And you that live and have control over your minds are the real privileged

“I choose what I put my mind to”

“I will not be focusing on that today”

That is privilege

The ability to choose

The ability to control

To navigate

To understand

Some of understand

But some of us can’t fix it

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poetry

Lonely night

It gets so lonely sometimes

I’ve been lonely for too long

Even while I was in relationships

It’s like no one really got me

No one really knew me

No one knew how to love me

Now I’m all alone

It gets so quiet at night

And I take up one side of the bed

I’ve become so addicted to it

Maybe it’s because that’s where I charge my phone and use it nonstop to distract me from the pain I feel

To make it less quiet

Less alone

I have my phone

Feeling sadness from loneliness does not equate lack of self worth

I think it’s time I get honest with myself

Being alone isn’t self love

It’s sometimes self isolation

I guess I’m afraid that someone would use my vulnerability against me

I’m too sensitive

I can’t afford to have more pain

But sometimes I wish I had my woman

I wish she adored me just as much as I adore her

She doesn’t exist yet

Although, a girl can only wish

Wish to be less lonely tonight

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poetry

End of the tunnel.

People who have no money think money is everything

People who have money think happiness is everything

We smoke and we numb our pain away

In that moment we play pretend and think that happiness is here to stay

If only we acted like what we feel on the inside

If only we acted like what we’ve been through

There would be so much chaos in the world

How much more are there of us?

The lost,

The confused,

The rebels,

The pain hoarder’s

The broken

The unopened book

“Life is full of phases”,they say

But I ask how much of the bad phases does it take to completely destroy a perfect human being?

Life keeps us jumping from one pain to the other

Sometimes when we get hurt we hope it doesn’t hurt more than some others

Sometimes we need to escape

Sometimes it’s uneasy

I really don’t want to believe that there is someone somewhere trying to push me to my limits

Since the world can’t hurt me

They want me to hurt myself

I guess I now believe in all that voodoo bullshit

Sometimes I lash out and sabotage

Hoping that someone see’s

To see me goes more than just meagre looking with the eyes

To see me is to see me

In my world nothing is ever surprising

In my world I accepted that demons don’t want to go away

They feel so comfortable because I no longer fight them

Sometimes we all get tired of fighting

All I need to do is just read the writing

The writing on this wall does not seem so clear anymore

I am standing firm

Holding myself so I don’t fall

A pillar to myself

I would have said what a weak pillar I am

But I’m not weak

I could be anything else but weak is not it

I have carried a self that wanted to break itself

I have mended a soul that decided it was going to play dead

I have embodied a spirit that chose not to die

So I live

Maybe some parts of me are gone

Or maybe they hide

Because they don’t feel safe in a world where sometimes we feel as though we are magnets to pain

And we cannot escape it

Until we lose our physical self

And if we cannot lose our physical self

We lose our minds

And when we lose our minds,

we lose it all.

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lgbt

UNDER THIS WOMAN.

“I am in control”, so I said to myself when she looked me straight in the eyes and told me how much she wanted me.

“I am in control”, I said.

Holding my body together,

Being strict on my mind and ignoring the goosebumps that can’t hide

She knows,

My anxiety tells me she knows how much I want her

How much I was to rip her clothes apart

She knows,

How much I want to see what her nipples really look like beneath that sundress,

How beautiful those nipples stand,

How I’m able to get out of this,I don’t seem to understand.

She touches me,

I can’t possibly tell her to stop

I want her even way more than she wants me

I thought to myself,

“Right now I’m right where she wants me to be”

She took off my shirt and kissed me from the neck down

She teased me and I shook at every single touch

How tender yet so aggressive

For her, in this moment I’ll be so decisive

She took me and made me her sex toy

She satisfied herself with my body

I had never felt more proud of myself than in that moment

Her sweat dripped down her back as she made sweet love to me

I grabbed her ass as she began going hard on me

Her ass smacking my thighs as her pussy hits mine

I lose touch with reality as I’m under her spell

“If this is hell ,I’ll gladly be your prisoner”, I whispered in her ear

She moaned out my name as she was choking me

She is my fantasy

She locked her eyes onto mine

I watched her facial expressions get so intense

As she rode on me

Her breasts bouncing

Her ass smacking

Wetness splattering

Vagina uncontrollably juicing

She captured my soul beyond explanation

She calls out my name one more time

This time she can barely be coherent

She is cumming all over me

I can feel her

Her cum dripping down my pussy

Her heart beating fast as she proceeds to lay on top of my body

How sweet

Nowhere I’d rather be

Than underneath this woman.

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UNFORGETTABLE

The rush

Just like ecstasy flowing through my body

She can’t be compared to nobody

The butterflies that she causes in my tummy are currently in chaos

They can’t think straight anymore

They lose their minds at the sweet sensation running through my heart

She gives us the true meaning of excitement

My vagina answers to the sound of her voice

And the feeling of her touch

Is it safe to just say she owns me?

My soul knows that she does

That is why whenever I’m without her

I close my eyes

And that is where my moment with her lies

Remembering all the moments we shared sitting across from each other on a beautiful night

Her eyes glowing

Such an incredible sight

Speaking love languages without words

Feeling of being in our on world

She lives in my heart

I have already made her a permanent home

No matter where she goes or I go

She will always stay within

I love her

With my body, soul and spirit

I do

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lgbt

OXYGEN

I can’t breathe

Feeling like somethings chaotic is about to happen

Feeling as though I’m trying to catch my breath

But still in that process

I can’t breathe

She left,

And for this reason,

It feels like my heart is squeezing

And my neck choked, not talking sexually

Is all well with me mentally ?

I can’t breathe

Air left me when she abandoned me

Like a book left on shelf

I slowly started dying

I can’t breathe

When she left my light turned to darkness

The beautiful life she promised, we couldn’t witness

How dare she leave

She knows she’s my weakness

Now all smiles lost

Holding on to memories that made me smile genuinely,

Like when I always told her, “smile for me baby”

I knew she was my one and only

She made me breathe

Fire ever burning

Desires never stopping

No matter what she thought she was

I saw the beauty in what seemed to be broken

And mystery in what made her who she is

I never planned for this

Where is my breath ?

I can’t breathe

Where is my oxygen?

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lgbt poetry

LOVE, SPACE AND FANTASIES.

I closed my eyes today,

Removed myself from this planet

And took you along with me

I guess you know where,

Space

Where our memories are only ours and hard to erase

Where nothing else matters than this place

Where it’s just us

Where I could look into your eyes

And tell you the millions of feelings inside of me

Where somehow we have superpowers and we could see each other’s hearts

Where I could kiss you

And we have nowhere else to go

Because it’s just us

And right there in that moment we could kiss and make love for as long as possible

Because with you is where I feel most comfortable

You’re with me

I’m touching your beautiful hair

So soft

But your skin is softer

Your face is amazing to touch

Your lips

Damn your lips

I stare at them when you’re not looking

The way your upper lip forms the letter “M”

When you smile it’s like the world changes

With you there’s no one or nothing I fear

It’s peaceful here

Wow

You’re the most beautiful woman I’ve ever known

I want to hold you every single day

Life without you Is no life at all

Every day for you I’d fall

Don’t be scared by love for you

You are all that matters to me

No one else makes me feel the way you do

I’d run to the end of the world and back for you

You,

You are everything

You’re all of me

You are a part of my body ,spirt and soul

With you I feel whole

I breath for you

I smile for you

I laugh for you

Because for you is all that makes me happy

Touch me

I mean my face

Make me feel all of the things you feel

Take me into you

As I have, you

Look into my eyes and tell me the things you find hard to say

Take me into the future

Preferably a sunny day in May

A walk on the beach

Blunts in Cali

Eye fucking each other while having lunch with Kota the friend

Your eyes telling me that this would never end

Don’t tell me to stop licking my lips

It’s the way you make me feel

You’re like a full course meal

With extras on the side

Lots and lots of extras

Look into my eyes one more time baby

Just the way you do

How you close your eyes just a little bit and open it,

when you tell me how much you love me

How you take me on journeys with your eyes

To places only our hearts could see

You are my greatest fantasy

There’s no place I’d rather be

Than in your arms

It’s the safest place for me

I love you but please don’t think you’d ever know how much I love you

It’s unexplainable

It’s deeper than you’ve ever imagined

So I touch your beautiful face

And I look into your eyes

And I tell you with all my being

With all of my heart

That from the very start

I have loved you,

I love you,

I’ll keep on loving you even more each passing day

Till all of eternity

I promise

I always will.

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poetry

Dear notes,

I come to you when I get sad

When I get mad

When I have no one to talk to

When I get tired of being the bone for others to stand tall

But mine breaks and no one even cares when I fall

My notes

What you know nobody knows

Sometimes I don’t know how much burden I would’ve carried if you weren’t in my life

I don’t know how I would’ve dealt with my pain in times of strife

You’ve been with me through it all I’d call you my wife

You know my secrets

You know just right where it hurts

You never judge me

Sometimes I wonder what other people would think if they ever go through all I write here

But honestly as long as I have you that’s the least that I fear

I love all that we share

You never left me so I know that you care

When I talk to myself you remind me that you’d be here

Always watching me as I drop a tear

Dear notes,

If I never make it out alive

Please self destruct and come along with me

I am not leaving the world with these words only our eyes could see.

Love,

Remi🤍

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lgbt

My breath.

My mind told me to go

But my heart told me no

I’m never letting go

The road to our freedom might be slow

I need you to know

That now I’m running to the end of the world and back

Trying not to lose track

Of every memory

And how you and all that you are

Is Just the perfect savory

I worship this love we both have

In all of your glory

You are the exact definition of royalty

I will fight to hear your heartbeat

When you win or when you lose I’ll take a seat

Right next to you

So I need you to know

I’m never letting go

You are all I need in this rugged world of pain

A life without you in it would’ve drove me insane

Hold my hands let’s walk in this lane

Where you and I are all that matters

Ignoring all the sadness that lingers

Take me to space

Let me live in your galaxy

You are mine

And I, yours.

I will love you forever

You are my breath.

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lgbt

WHAT THEY DO TO ME.

Ever been next to a person and the world just stops?

And you’re flown up into space?

Knowing fully well that they’d be hard to erase?

There’s nowhere I’d rather be

Than this place

Right where they breathe

Right where they smile

Right where their eyes shine brighter than the stars

Right where their name brings instant joy and comfort

Right where their lips feel like a million journeys to worlds undiscovered

Right where I can read the stories their soul tells

Just by feeding on the perfect meal served through their words

In that moment they are the lord of lords

They are truly god

A glorious existence

There’s no safer place than in each other’s hands hoping we never let go

Hoping that time moves slow

So that we don’t have to wait till tomorrow

As I try to stop everything else and create this little world where I space out to

And take them along with me

A journey to a world where there are no wrongs

No fears

No tears

Just bliss

I don’t know what this feeling is

It’s just that

Being with them,

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