It’s been a while I went to church
It’s been a while I spoke to God
I don’t chose to be far away
But I have no choice but to be
Seems like it’s the only way
Sometimes I want to have conversation with God
I want to know if it’s true
All I’ve been hearing about him turning His back against girls and boys like me
They say God doesn’t love us
That we are abominations
That we don’t deserve your love and kindness
That you’d never listen to us
Is it true ?
I’ve always wanted to know
I want to stop feeling guilty anytime I call on you to provide me a loving girlfriend who will open doors to unbelievable dreams I thought never existed
Or calling on you to take away my depression
Is it wrong ?
I stayed away from church for so long
They make me feel like an outcast
They call me a sinner and a product of satan indirectly
I hate the pretense
It’s disgusting that I have to sit there and act like I’m okay with it
With people spiting me
I’m not welcomed there
They judge people like me
It’s all in our favor that the pandemic caused a suspension on churches
And I would not accept the fact that they say your love does not get to people like me
The amazing people you created
They say we are mentally deranged
Millions of us ?
you created us so didn’t you give us the ability to feel ?
Why are we so many
Are millions of us walking around mentally deranged ?
Mentally deranged for loving who we love ?
For living our truth and being happy ?
Tell me
I need answers
Who made this rule
Who wrote the Bible
Why did they do this to us
What if ?
Just what if ?
Religion is the only problem standing in our way
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