The fear of loving
The fear to be loved
Knowing that I’m incapable of trusting
And that I’d hurt anyone that tries to love me
It’s not my fault
I don’t chose this
But to be honest my life hasn’t been a total bliss
There’s a lot I’m going to miss
But I’d rather not try
The next heartbreak might just ruin me
I’m damaged already
But there’s a limit that I can take
My heart is broken
It’s not my fault that I doubt everything that comes my way
it’s not just something that someone could come to take away
My heart is broken
Just as glass when shattered cannot be put together
I really can’t be there for anyone
Because I’m just as broken
My head goes numb thinking of how much of pain it took
You’d know the feeling if you’ve ever been punched in the head multiple times
These are hard times
But I’d take these times over that time
I’d rather be stuck in my house during a pandemic.
