BLIND (part 1).

Maybe I’m not what you want

Maybe I’m just what distracts you until you get it

But I hope you still want me

When I’ve moved on

I hope you remember how I made you feel

I hope you remember the sound of my moan when you touched me

The taste of my lips

Because I still taste yours on mine in my dreams

The sound the bed made when you were on top of me

The face you made me make

While you made me cum

Because I remember yours

The dimples I see when you smile

I can’t live without you

And it haunts me

It hurts me

That I don’t know how I fell in love with you

I just remember holding your hand

Realizing how much it was going to hurt to let it go

I knew someday I’d have to

I just didn’t know it would be too soon

No matter how much you make me feel sometimes

I still want you

I want to hold your face

And kiss you anywhere I want

Even in elevators

Or on the damn street of Lagos

Where no one can stand to see us

I never understood why I wasn’t enough for you

It crushes my heart feeling like you meant the world to me

But you only made me a little space in your heart

And that was where I took shelter and it comforted me

I’d cry for a few months

Until it no longer hurts

Just memories

They weren’t that many memories

But the few where the best in the world

It’s so messed up

The fact that I will always love you

Even if that love hurts me deep

I can’t write anymore than this

It hurts