Sitting in the dark
Staring at nothing
Feeling these emotions
Praying to God to let them out through the tears
Just moments before I lose my damn mind.
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WOE
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Only a day
It’s been only a day
And all I can think about is you
The softness of your lips
The softness of your hair
And the softness of your body on mine
The scent off your body forms a never ending imagination in my head
I form these crazy hallucinations of you in my bed
I wonder if you’d ever really be mine
Or I’ll be stuck with all I have of you
These memories that I’d keep for as long as I wait till you want me
A part of me tells me your heart is with someone else
And it hurts that I have to hide the way I feel about you
Some day I hope you’d feel the same too
Love is crazy
Isn’t it ?
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Love yourself.
Do you ever feel hated ?
I mean really feel like you’re not wanted
And don’t mean anything to the people you thought meant the world to you
And this time I’m not talking about love and emotions between two lovers
I’m talking about family
Have you ever felt like you’re not just good enough?
And everyday you feel like there’s nothing you could ever do to be that superstar
And then you see yourself standing afar when you should’ve been close enough
And things don’t matter anymore
You give up on them
And you give up on yourself
Then when you try ending your life they act like they care
And just when they see you doing good
And being all happy again
They make you go through the same emotionally draining cycle
my heart is bleeding
And some how I feel like there isn’t any blood left enough to live through this misery too
Trust me I feel the same way
You’re tired of looking too perfect?
Everyone else wishing they’d be like you
But in your mind you know you’re rejecting it on their behalf ?
This might be the worst shit you’d ever read
But never trust a love that comes after you survive suicide or depression
It is fake
They’re only doing it not to feel responsible for your death
Don’t die but pls don’t live for them either
I love you
Love yourself too.
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BIT MY LIP.
Sometimes I blur out the world
And just think of you
Sometimes I close my eyes hoping I sleep just to dream of you
Sometimes I get high
Just high enough to hallucinate you right by my side
I pull on the air
Imagining the strands of your hair
I bit my lip last night
I thought of yours and it distracted me
I want to show you off my love
I don’t want to care anymore
Why should I hide an angel so beautiful
I don’t want to hide you anymore
I’d pull up to Aso rock and tell the president to shove his ego up his ass
So he’d know how good it feels to be queer
I just hope you hear
My heart is calling on you my wife
I’d show up to the market filled with old women and take in all their frowns and disgust and make them feel whatever pain they feel just by watching two women In love kiss
I’d show up to a gathering of men at a beer parlor who turned their wives into kitchen plates that live in the kitchen cabinets
And show them how to treat a woman
I’d kiss you again and again my love
They would spit at us and call us sinners
But I would blur them out
I’d bite my lip again and stare at your beautiful face
For you I’d run a race
From the beginning of the world to the end
I will love you till the death of me
They can’t take away my love for you
Even if they take me away from you
I just hope you hear me my wife
My heart is calling
Everyday I keep on falling
I bite my lip again
Hoping I see you in my dreams
Goodnight my lover.
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Welcome back.
The weed is out of my body now
The high is totally gone
Now I have to deal with these emotions
My emotions that come to release the inner demons that I fight
The monsters that torment me beneath my bed at night
Now I’m not so strong anymore
I’m back to reality
Now the tears can finally fall again
Now I have to hug my pain
And kiss the short term happiness goodbye
The sadness tells me
“Welcome back to our world my dear”
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Pineapples 🍍
I want a taste of it
A taste of pineapple
It’d taste better coming from you
I’d sneak in leave no traces maybe
But your neighbors might call that you screamed my name too loud
It would work but you can’t get it with no sound
gasp for breath while I choke you
I promise it won’t hurt
Scratch on my back while I pierce you
I promise you would vibrate
Look into my eyes while I satisfy myself with your beauty and just how perfectly shaped your lips are
Kiss me one more time
Remind me that I’m vulnerable to you
Whisper in my ear that you love me
Call me your super hero
And boost my ego
Give me a hickey
As takeaway
I wanna go home stare at it in my mirror
And smile before I go to bed
Affect my sleep with the thoughts of your body
Disrupt my thoughts with the perfect scent of your body
Now I don’t want to have breakfast
All I want is you
There’s no better food I’d rather have
They tasted so good
Now I don’t want anything else
But the pineapple from beneath your skirt
let’s do this tomorrow
Same time ?
I sneak out
I’d risk getting the virus
Just for pineapples.
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love and pandemic
The fear of loving
The fear to be loved
Knowing that I’m incapable of trusting
And that I’d hurt anyone that tries to love me
It’s not my fault
I don’t chose this
But to be honest my life hasn’t been a total bliss
There’s a lot I’m going to miss
But I’d rather not try
The next heartbreak might just ruin me
I’m damaged already
But there’s a limit that I can take
My heart is broken
It’s not my fault that I doubt everything that comes my way
it’s not just something that someone could come to take away
My heart is broken
Just as glass when shattered cannot be put together
I really can’t be there for anyone
Because I’m just as broken
My head goes numb thinking of how much of pain it took
You’d know the feeling if you’ve ever been punched in the head multiple times
These are hard times
But I’d take these times over that time
I’d rather be stuck in my house during a pandemic.
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Can’t sleep.
I can’t sleep
You hurt me deep
Now I can’t sleep
All I remember is our skin to skin
The warmth of your body on mine
who am I to deny
That you are in my every thought
Who could have ever thought
That as toxic as you are for me
I still can’t sleep
Thinking of you
And the lies that I miss
I can’t sleep
Hope you’re sleepless because of me too
That’s all I need to know
You are my beloved sorrow
But I’ll take what I get
Even if it’s half of you
I’ll take this love untrue
Goodnight my boo.
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TAKE IT ALL AWAY
I lay in bed and wonder what the hell I’m doing here
Can I wake up from this dream?
Can I please just disappear
The darkness surrounds me
It’s getting so cold
I’m all alone
With no one to hold
My world is so empty
All that’s left is pain
No sunshine to light my way
Just never-ending rain
So I drown in tears
My heart is crying
No one seems to notice,
My soul is dying,
I have to fake my crazy laugh
I act like the life of the party
And pretend like everything is fine
So they don’t see me as I truly am
Even if my smile is crooked
I still try
I can’t take away the pain
I can’t pretend that I’m okay
I can’t take it anymore
I hate it all
Please forgive me God
But you know I’ve had enough.
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Love is love
As soon as I set my eyes on you
I felt a connection
More like female domination
Over my heart
I’ve always wanted you from the start
let me be your mat
Lay over me with your naked body
Not just for sexual desires
But to feel your soul connect with mine
And hear every beat of your heart
Give me hickeys
So I’d have a reason to stare at my body
For as long as I have them
I’d never for once stop thinking of you
Stare at me once more while I moan
Your eyes are my paradise
This isn’t a game of dice
There are no odds
I savored every moment I had with you
I can’t seem to get the scent of your neck out of my mind
I remember it every time I think of you
Never felt a love so true
I can’t do no wrong when it comes to you
You are all that I want regardless of what the world wants
They are not us and there are no buts
Just the guts
To love each other and drop a bit of every color of our rainbow everywhere we go
You are all I know
You make me grow
you’re like water ever quenching the pain of the fire inside of me
but this time soothing me well enough not to put out my light but to soften my pain
You are like rain
Watering my heart
So my love for you grows
You’re beautiful inside and out
I love a girl I’d shout
Without doubt
Love is love.
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